It’s going to be a long journey. But, I have to start somewhere. So, here I am doing something I swore I’d never do. Of course, the more I experience life, the more I understand the phrase, “Never say never.” I was never going be anything other than a doctor (everyone told me so)…until I admitted to myself that, while I was capable of becoming a doctor, what I really wanted to do was teach and raise a family. I was never going to be anything less than an amazing teacher…until my first teaching job shattered my illusions of what “teaching” meant. I knew for certain that I would never do this or that with MY children…until I had children and realized babies and toddlers have minds of their own. I would never leave the Bay Area and all my family and friends…until Mike’s job offers led us to New York…and Chicago…and, 5 years later, back to SF. I would never give up my career to be a stay-at-home-mom (lose my identity and waste my education? No, thank you)…until I chose to walk away from a part-time teaching position I loved to move to NY with Mike and Ashby (and Ryan on the way). I soon realized, however, that being a stay-at-home-mom was more fulfilling to me than spending my day in a classroom (away from my own kids).
So, no more “never.” It’s still my natural reaction sometimes, when faced with an option that I didn’t plan, to immediately think, “no,” and feel my body tighten with anxiety. But, it’s a fleeting feeling. I understand myself well enough now to know that, given a couple days to think and process a big change, I can adapt to pretty much anything. Flexibility makes for a much better life, I think. So, this is me adapting yet again. These past experiences have brought me to today. I am a stay-at-home-mom and a teacher. I started homeschooling Ashby in Chicago, and we continue it now here in the SF Bay Area. Ryan joined in a couple years ago, too. I love where I am, and I’m thankful for all the successes and failures that brought me here. As much as I love to plan, I accept that life could care less about my plans. Much like a baby, it has a mind of its own. I look forward to seeing where it leads me. For now, I’ll focus on teaching the kids. I know I need to keep a digital record of our homeschooling adventure; but, a blog? Everyone and their mother has one, and I would never do something so trendy…until now.